My Ashley Is So Beuatiful

Day 120~

My Ashley Is So Beautiful. I Miss My Girl So Much. Feel So Empty & Alone Without My Daughter, My Best Friend. I Still Can't Believe She is Gone. Everything Is a Constant Reminder That The Part of My Life That My Ashley Filled, Is Now Empty, Lonely, Excruciatingly Painful Space. That Is a Big Part of My Life, Since We Were Together Almost 24/7.

I Do Not Know How To Live In a World Without My Sweet Beautiful Ashley. I Will NEVER Understand Why My Ashley Had To Endur...e So Much Pain and Suffering and Why She Had To Be Taken Away From Us. NEVER. What Makes All of This Increasingly More Painful, Is The Fact That She Wanted To Live So Badly. One Of The Last Things She Said Was, "I Just Want The Chemo To Work."

This Eats Me Up Inside Every Second Of Every Day.

I Have My Two Beautiful Boy's. There Is Only One Thing Left That I Want, That I Need, To Make Me Whole. My Sweet Beautiful Ashley.

I Keep Thinking That This Must Be a Nightmare. But Then, Nobody Ever Wakes Me Up.

To All You Mom's Out There Who Are Blessed To Still Have A Sweet Beautiful Daughter, Or Daughter's and Son or Son's, Do Not Take That For Granted. Spend Every Single Second That You Can With Them and Tell Them That You Love Them and Are Proud of Them and Tell Them Often.

"Dying a Little More Each Day."